6-30

So today, i dissapointed myself alot....i ate...alot...i binged like no other. Im so mad at myself, and i couldnt even throw it up. ugh i hate myself...i keep trying to keep myself distracted but my boyfriend tyler left today and im sad. If im already this weak then im screwed. i need to keep my eye on the goal.... i know i need to do this. I got to focus on my goal...i will not be fat anymore, in the meantime i am working on my proana journal and writing daily on my progress. Im tierd of being a fat lard. Im gonna change me.